from today..I will stay here.

if we live together
as a man and a woman from now,

then you don't have to worry about
losing 'man' in you after the operation.

CHAPTER 19

Yang Dong-geun & Lee Na-young

SCRIPT by In Jung-ok

DIRECTED by Park Sung-su

I can't do that..

I shouldn't..

Boksu!

I'm not leaving.

it's because..

it's because of me,
not because of you.

I don't want to lose..

any single moment with you.

but..

we can't do that..

I..

shouldn't do that, you know..

you shouldn't have done it long ago.

not now..

you shouldn't have liked me.

before that..

you shouldn't have come to see me.

before that..

you shouldn't have stolen my wallet.

you shouldn't have done it.

why have you done all of that ?

I mean,

I shouldn't do it right now.

I don't..,

I don't wanna miss a thing
I can do with you..

now..

I don't wanna miss anything..

I cherish you soooo much..

that I don't wanna miss a thing.

it's dangerous!

what's really dangerous is..

to try to control your love.

let's just let it flow..
and let's walk together..

oh, what a lucky guy I am..

a pretty girl is trying to sleep with me..

when I made more money,

I'll buy you a new one
which fits your finger.

I'm gonna be..

I'm gonna be in a tragedy.

I'm gonna be like a monster.

where is..

your shaver?

looks nice.

( I can feel the autumn breeze.. )

( it's coming through the window
to my empty heart.. )

don't move.

( I'm leaning on the cold wall.. )

( at the time of dawning.. )

( I want to see you, but.. )

( I can't come close to you.. )

( it's time for me to leave.. )

( you gave warm and big love.. )

( to my lonely eyes.. )

( I might regret my decision.. )

( to leave you now.. )

( but it's because I love you.. )

( I can never forget.. )

( my only love for you.. )

( but I have to erase you
from my memory.. )

( I'm always hurting you.. )

( but someday you'll understand me.. )

( I might regret my decision.. )

( to leave you now.. )

( but it's because I love you.. )

( I can never forget.. )

( my only love for you.. )

( my dear love.. )

( good bye.. )

Kyung,

have breakfast and
get some sleep again.

I'm..making breakfast for you..

are you?

I don't usually have breakfast..

you said you're making breakfast
for me now, didn't you?

yes..I did..

she become a fool again.

she's drooling..

yes, she's got dirty
from time to time..

it's a new pillow..

Kyung..

have brea..

breakfast!

I said, I'm..

making breakfast for you..

ouch!

I'm..making breakfast..

oh, my back feels hot!

what kind of flower is this?

it's all bent.

you should've bought pretty ones.

it looks just like you.

the world knows that I'm pretty.

what kind of world?

- Boksu world..
- oops! you're so embarrassing..

and cute.

I'll be your right hand..

from today.

- Kyung,
- yeah,

you were drooling on your pillow.

is it your habit?

is it?

from tomorrow..

I'll make breakfast.

you were drooling a lot..
you were just like..

a dog.

you were..

snoring.

don't lie to me!
that's too thin!

it's not a lie.

it is!

last night, I didn't sleep at all..

watching your face..

you're lying.

I was watching your face all night long..

and that was so much happiness..

and I've come to think about it by myself..

well..

my thoughts got so complicated..but..

I won't marry you.

we..

got married yesterday.

let's get divorced, then.

no way!

I'm gonna pack up all my things from home
and come back here..

I didn't think about it seriously
before I got married to you..

but..
after we got married yesterday..

after I got so happy with you..

I came to know that..
for me..

there's gonna be a tragedy in the end..

there's not gonna be a tragedy.

there is!
I can die, or..

something worse can happen..

what's worse than dying?

to become handicapped..

I think that's worse than dying..

nothing is worse than dying.

yes, something is.

because..

if I die,

you will be set free from me,
but..if my body got worse than now,

you can't easily divorce me.

'cause you're gonna feel guilt for me.

that's why..

I shouldn't marry you.

you'll feel guilty..
and you can't divorce me..

I don't want to make you like that..

so I won't marry you.

I don't want to see that.

maybe I'd get sick of you
to see that.

I won't be like that.

I like nobody but you.

oh..

you know nothing about me.

becoming handicapped is not a big deal!

you must be insane..

what are you doing?

during breakfast?

why did you say such things
during breakfast?

let's go have some exercise.
it can prevent you
from becoming handicapped.

let's go.

why are you hanging on to it?

this horizontal bar is like you.

so, you're hanging on to me?

yeah,

I won't fall from it.

ouch!

how long can you hang on to the bar?

30 seconds.

I passed the physical test.

then, you can hang on to it
no more than 30 seconds.

well..if I kept sticking to it,
maybe longer than that.

bar exercise is not by strength,
but by sticking to it.

why do you stick to
that kind of thing?

maybe you're gonna stick to me, too.

I guess you're gonna
hang on to me like that.

you're not like the horizontal bar.

yes, I'm like that.

just like you desperately
hang on to the bar for 30 seconds..

you'll stick to me like that,
I shouldn't let you do that.

someday..I'm gonna be like..

the bar..without brain..
like this..

what are you doing, Boksu?

now you're laughing,
but..

later you'll cry.

I might be like that horizontal bar,
you never know..

as long as I'm alive..
I want to stay..

as a 'man' to you..

a 'sexy' man..

you think it feels like a 'man'?

is it sexy?

married people don't always live..

a 'sexy' life, you know..

I'm still under 30..
and maybe..

I might die before I turn 30..
so I want my body to stay..

'sexy' to you..
till the day I die..

now you like even my..

disgusting sides, too..

but..

I wish you like my body..
as long as I live..

it's gonna be disgusting..

to watch you
putting up with my handicapped body..

and pretending to live with my soul..

you're not a nun!

are you?

my brain might be messed up,
but my eyes can see..

you living like that..

my eyes are gonna get..

crazy to see that!

my right hand is still okay..

but now I'm using my left hand..

to train it.

you don't have to be my right hand..

because..

I still got my left hand!

we got married yesterday,

but we have to get divorced today..

don't come to my place after this..

looks fun..

( the more I love you.. )

( the more I feel like throwing up.. )

( maybe I'm falling.. )

( in love with you.. )

I'll cover her ring with my saliva..

to make it smell just like me.

hey, you guys don't help me to pack up?

get some manners!

you don't have much to pack up,
just throw them away.

you wanna take this?

you've been wearing it..
I don't want to take it.

I have so many memories with this..

those memories are yours!
this is just a waste for me.

how can you use the word 'waste'?

you can keep this here
as a memory of me..

don't you guys know that
I'm quitting now?

you're so cold-hearted..

we don't like you to leave us.
and we don't like you
to be a college student, either.

memory?
you're not gonna see us again
once you became a college student, are you?

it's not exactly like that.

I mean,
I just want to get along with you all
only until I become a college student.

once I got into the college..
then it's a bye-bye to you all.

I don't want to hang out
with non-college people.

hey, college students are no different.

loot at me,
I'm just the same as you.

I'm not like you.

once I become a college student,
I'll look down on every people
who's not from a college..

and I will use the language
only college students knows..

plus, when I met someone,
I'll ask about which college they're attending!

I will do everything
a college student can do!

I guess you will!

you'll be as rude as you can be..
I can picture that..

I'll kick every non-college people's butt!

especially Ko Boksu..

what do you do here?

death makes you to miss your good old wife?

oh..

right..you're better than..

Kyung..as a wife..
I must admit that.

tell me about it!
you didn't know that before?

I told you about it
millions of times..

finally you've grown up!

but I've grown up, too!
so, I don't want to live
with a loser like you any more.

you're from jail..
and you're a patient..

plus, you're only
a middle-school graduate.

am I?

no, I'm dropped out of high-school.

that means
you're still a middle school graduate.

I passed the high-school exam in jail.
so, I'm a high-school graduate.

oh yeah..you're so great!

oh, right.

- I don't wanna go there alone.
- uh?

let's go!

you know, I came here
to tell you something..

I don't wanna hear that,
I'm busy!

( pre-college academy )

( saimdang academy )

( no.1 academy )

( list of lecturers )

this guy..

and this..and this guy!

well..but..

this guy looks so nerdy.

a nerd can give you a good lecture!

I don't like nerdy people very much..

are you going out with lecturers?

who knows?
lecturers are making big money,
you know..

don't be like that!
you gotta study!

if I go out with lecturers,
they will help me to study,
don't you think so?

what..turned you like this?

you lost yourself
after you got dumped by me?

stop making me laugh.

after I broke up with you,
my life got much better!

if we hadn't broken up,
I guess I could not have started this.

I must've been still making money for you.

that hurts..

why?

sounds disappointing?

yeah.

but sounds you're alright now..

so..

I don't have to feel sorry for you,
do I?

good girl.

you're kidding me?

you still have to feel sorry,
you betrayer!

don't hit me on my head!

oh..

I forgot..
about your head..

'cause I haven't seen you for a while..

it's 90,000 won, isn't it?

- what are you doing?
- it's a gift for you,

a gift from a betrayer..

I'm as happy as I can be
when somebody's paying for me.

I know you are.

thank you.

oh..your face makes me
to like you again.

how about taking you back from her?

recently, Kyung kept saying,
'I'll marry Boksu.'

but I don't think she'd be like me,
if I took you back from her.

then, what's she gonna be like?

I guess she'll grab me by hairs
if I took you away from her.

no..she's not that kinda person.

well, she used to be not like that,
but now she's turned like a robot!

is she on strange pills
or something like that?

people don't really change..

they're always coming back to
what they're used to be..

Mirae,

what?

you help me.

is he playing with his toy?

he seems to be bored..

Boksu!

you came here to play with me?

you think I'm a bummer?

I didn't come here to play with you.

director, follow me.

uh?

- hey, you guys go first.
- yes, sir!

you made it by yourself?

yes.

- did you have a talk with a pro skate-boarder?
- yes.

then, you can let him do this..

no..

he's skating for fun.
I don't think he can do a stunt.

plus, I already got the money from the client,
I don't want to give it back to them.

give the money back
and forget about it.

no way!
I never give the money back
once I had it.

you're gonna be in danger,
if you continue to live like that.

this is dangerous.
don't do this.

okay, you feed me, then.

me feed you?
no!

you're changing your mind so easily,
you must be crazy about money!

- stop it..
- ouch!

if I gave you 5,000 won per day..
will you quit this?

no, 15,000 per day!

5,000 per every meal..

you want money for nothing?

forget about it, then.

okay, 8,000 per day.

if you wanna help me,
then really help me!

hey, why do I have to feed you?

I was just mocking my mom..

I was just kidding, director.

but..it's fun to mock my mom!

my mom must have had fun, too..

your mother..also has a brain tumor?

oh..you're lacking imagination.

by the way,
you look very cool today!

- really?
- yeah.

- it's..
- yeah,

it's a cheap one.

but it's nice.

- really?
- yeah.

let me help you skate!

I like this place so much!

which do you like better?
me? or this place?

what are you saying?

you really need to get married!

don't love me!
go find your own woman!

if you had been a little prettier than now,
I might have loved you.

thank you for being ugly!

that means, you lost
the 'weirdly-pronouncing' girl to Chan-suk?

well,

ex-doctor thing works for girls!

oh, what can I expect from girls?

you can say that again!

you don't have to hide it from me,
I can't even read music score..

it that for 1 week?

no, it's for 1 month.

you don't have to get medicine for 1 month.
you're gonna take an operation soon.

who said that?

if you're not taking an operation,

I'll die on an accident.

you're saying very weird things..

and..wearing a very weird look now.

I'm coming back to your place soon.

but now,
I need some time to find the reason
why I have to live with you.

as you already know,
I'm not that kind of person
who thinks about something very deeply..

but you turned me
a deep-thinking person.

you're gonna see a good result soon.

I don't think so.

I like to live alone.

I don't feel comfortable
with a woman in my house.

oh..

I wish I'm a Mirae.

why?

then I can beat you up with my fist.

what a pity..

it looks like a hair pin.

isn't it pretty?

yeah, what a fantastic color!

it's from your hair.

my head got a hole?
finally?

this is a brain-tumor bug, then.

right.

when a bug is this pretty,

your brain tumor must be prettier!

now you're playing with words..

the earth is prettier than
people on it..

it looks to me like that.

that's because you're watching it
from a distance.
only when you're looking close to it,

you'll see the truth.

what a polluted earth!

okay, I'll watch your brain tumor
from a distance.

you're playing with words again..

it's your hair pin.

a beetle-hair-pin!

I think..

your brain tumor will look pretty to me.

it feels like..

you're getting isolated..

from society..gradually..
I mean, your way of thinking..

you want me to
let you know what the reality is?

no.

no matter what you'd say,

I will live by myself.

I already drew up the plan of my life!

you know..

I'm still going out with you..but..

I won't make you as my family member.

that kind of relationship..

is not very neat.

in my family..there's..

only me..

that's my conclusion.

are you so sick of..

me trying to be with you?

I love it sooooo much..

so I'm sooooo sick of it.

( new email from Mr.Han )

Chun Kyung,

I'm in love now.

she's a model.

she's sexier than you, isn't she?

oh..

my Boksu is sexier than you!

oh..

I don't want to move out, Mirae.

don't linger on past..

or your life will get messed up.

I like to move out!

let's write a new history
in a new town!

I like Seoul..

I don't want to move into a country-side.

you stupid!

il-san is not a country-side!

il-san looks much like Seoul
than this place.

and our flat has an elevator,

you don't have to carry heavy things
all the way up here any more.

Boksu used to carry
all those heavy things for us..

this house needs Boksu..

let's move out to..

a new place which doesn't need Boksu..

I'll support myself.

are you capable of doing that?
I don't think so.

I'm not financially capable of that,

but I think I'm at the age
to be independent.

the age to be independent?

the age when I can feel only 'my' age..

the age I don't have to care about
my family members' ages..

and care only about 'my' age..

stop kidding..

what is she saying?

I have no idea..

you should feed her well,

sounds like
she's in a mal-nutrition.

telling nonsense..

have a talk with me, Kyung.

finish your breakfast first.

have your breakfast.

you guys get together
for the first time..

hearing that I'm moving out.

we got together?

about my breakfast..

unanimously..

I better move out..

that's good for my family, too.

Mirae!

where are you going?

- nevermind!
- where are you going?

are you going to see Boksu?

oh..

we can't even move out..

Boksu's dragging us down again..

Boksu!

Boksu,

I'm here.

nice to see me again?

does it hurt so much?

you didn't tell Kyung about this?

who's Kyung?

- what are you saying..
- who are you?

hey, is your brain alright?

I don't really get why Junior's
always telling you about me..

you stunned me!
you jerk!

yo! Kyung!

oh..you..

just kidding!
you know,

I never say 'yo' to Kyung..

you're making me feel uneasy..

Mirae,

what the hell?

you're not crying any more,
even when I'm injured..

that's a good thing..

you're getting better..

I cried enough for you!

I'm sick of crying now.

I won't cry even if you die..

oh, that's not a good thing.

you wanna keep doing stunt?

no.

I gave it up.
and I don't regret my decision.

why?
you can die like a movie star
during stunting.

you'll be in a newspaper, you know.

stupid jerks always want to
burn out like a movie star..

but that's just nothing.
waste of your life.

Boksu,

yeah,

- I did some search about it..
- yeah,

there's one sanitarium near to il-san..

it looks pretty nice to be in.

did you put your house on sale?

yeah,

I'll live the rest of my life..

alone..quietly..

I'll come to see you often..

no..

you don't have to come..

don't waste your time,

and pay more attention
to your business.

it seems to be a grave..

for goldfishes..

have a good sleep, goldfish.

life has been so tough,
hasn't it?

the owner of fishbowl has died,

now you're the owner of this bowl.

you guys feel sorry for her?

we came to see your house.

I'm sorry, what?

your house is on sale now.

hey guys,
this table is less than 1 year old..

don't handle it carelessly.

hey,

there's a cut!

you did it, didn't you!

hey, relax!

you sound like an old woman.

Kyung?

this one got a cut, too!

I'm busy now.

Boksu?

he doesn't answer your call?

I said, I'm busy now!

I can't see you right now!

I don't care about you guys' business!

oh, where are you heading to,
Mr.Han?

I came to see you.

why?

aren't you curious about my girl?

no.

you must be curious, I know.

what are you saying?

honey, get off!

you see?

she's taller than you.

I didn't say she's not.

nice to meet you.

same here.

she's my ex-girlfriend.

oh..she doesn't match you very well.

let's get on the car, honey.

where are you going now?
you want me to give you a ride?

Mr.Han,

let me tell you one thing..

the lighting stand you gave me before..

yeah,

I gave it to Boksu.

why did you give it to him!
that's an expensive one!

and I will give him my laptop, too!

oh..

she's pissing me off..

honey!

shut up!

doctor!

how're you doing?

is..

my Boksu here?

he's in hospital now.

you didn't know that?

why?

( room : 659
name : Ko Boksu
male / 26 )

you like this movie?

yes.

you have a good taste for movie like me..

not like your mom.

okay, let me tell you
which one's for whom.

this one's..

for you.

you like paintings, right?

so I bought a book of painting.
know what's a book of painting?

no.

it's a collection of..
paintings by famous artists.
like..Lee Jung-seob..and Park Soo-keun.

those two guys are all I know of.

and..

this one's..

for your daddy.

and tell him that
don't ever mess with mom, okay?

okay.

and..this one's..

for mom.
some cosmetics for her.

very expensive ones.

so keep an eye on this, okay?
it's from overseas!

'made in korea' is for you,

and 'made-in-overseas' is for mom, okay?

okay..

and..

give my words to her..

that..

mom looks just beautiful
when she put on a make-up.

so..

don't forget to put on a make-up, okay?

okay.

see you next time!

okay,

let's see often!

no, that's not a smart thing to do..

if we see each other often,
then you wouldn't wanna go back home, right?

because you like me
more than your mom and dad.

that way,

you might be drifting away from home.

that's why
we shouldn't see each other often.
know what I'm saying?

where's my Kyung?

where?

my Kyung!

you guys ate her up?

did you?

oh boy..

you guys are making my life a mess!

he hasn't come yet?

is he really coming?

yeah,
'cause he gotta take a treatment.

I'll be waiting for him, then..

hey,

something happened between you and him?

why are you asking me about that?

'cause I'm concerned that
something bad might have happened again
because of me..

I'm afraid you might kill yourself, too.

I'm sorry?

well..

this is not that big deal
which can drive you to kill yourself..

what are you talking about?

Boksu..

wanted me to find a sanitarium for him.

he wants to live as a 'patient'
from now.

quietly..

he must be insane..

no, he's not insane.
that's the right thing he has to do now.

but it's a bit sad..
isn't it?

if he lives like that,
he'll soon get bored..

soon to be bored to death.

you can..

you can stop him from doing that..

why do I have to stop him?
I'm not living with him.

he suddenly got strange..

something happened?

he..

married me..

what?

he said, he feels more complicated..

after he got married to me.

you slept with him?

yes.

oh boy..you're..really..

how could you do that?
you never know what'll happen!

you're so irresponsible..

but you're braver than me..

now I get why he's acting like that.

he wants to get deeper with you..
that's why he's hiding from you..

he wants to get married to you
and live happily with you..

but the happier he gets now,
the sadder he'd get later..

don't you think so?

I think he's doing it right..

now Boksu's doing
the right thing for you both..

now you stop it,
that's enough!

why did you sleep with him?

that's only making him
to desire more in life..

now it's time for him
to control his desire..

why control his desire?

'cause he'll soon to die..
desire only gives him pain..

he should desire more!

he can give up his desire
in the grave..

why giving up his desire
before he dies?

that's not a life,
that's a death..

I planned to stand by him..

after he gets into the sanitarium.

so I moved into a town close to it.

but Kyung..

yes,

tell him not to come
to the sanitarium.

I don't want to stand
between you two.

love?

yes, you're very good at that..

do as you please..

one more thing,

don't contact me
about Boksu's business again,
okay?

I won't contact you
about Boksu's business, either.

got it?

yes.

let's shake hands.

good bye, Mirae.

good bye.

same thing for me.

hey,

why did you call me at this hour?
you're not gonna sleep with me,
are you?

I heard that you got divorced.

you have no right to talk about it.
you're the cause of my divorce.

is that what she said?
she said, it's because of me?

she didn't say it's because of you.

now I get why she divorced you.

you still have no idea
why she wanted to get divorced..

why did you call me?

to irritate you.

why irritate me?

well, you need to experience more girls.

you know what's your problem?

what is that?

you're always like..
'hey, come on'..

that's your problem.

what's wrong with that?
that always worked.

always worked?
you're kidding me.

can you name any woman
who will cry for you if you're dead?
I don't think there's one.

I guess you think you got me,
right?

right.

well, from now,
don't try to look like a 'tough' guy..

just try to look so poor..

guess why I'm seeing you.

my money.

that's just for the early stage.

now, it's not necessarily money..

one day,
I saw a piece of you..

the day you ran into your mom..

your eyes..

looked so angry..but..

quite different
from your everyday eyes.

mister,

ease your eyes,

ease your hair,

ease your shoulders,

only then you can meet a new woman.

and please get over
your affection deficiency.

it was nice to see you today.

I just wanted to preach..

'cause I always need
someone to preach to.

bye.

hey,

I'll give you a ride.

no thanks.

I'm not living in Seoul any more.

good luck to your life!

ease your eyes, okay?

wait..

I was born to have eyes like these..

oh..

wh..
why..are you beating up a patient?

sanitarium?

how..how do you know?

does it matter?

let's have a seat.

have this coffee first.

you drink them all!

have a seat.

I wrote down..

our solution and plan for future
on this notebook.

there're two cases,
first one is about when you got handicapped.

second one, when you died.

I made up the solutions
for these two cases.

alright..

I'll read it out to you.

you hear me, okay?

oh..

what am I doing now?

you can forget about it..

and have this coffee.

oh, how can I forget about this?

I hate to read this..

you read it yourself..

and I will do as written here..

and..

I will live with you
in any case..

open it for me.

yours, too.

I won't have it.

have it,
I don't want to drink coffee alone.

Boksu,

Kyung,

don't call my name,

it's disgusting..

actually..

I stopped by my home..
to pack up and go to the sanitarium..

Boksu..

just..

live when you're alive..
and die when you're dead..

don't be dead when you're alive,

and don't try to be alive
when you're dead.

live as a 'man'
while you're a man,

and live as 'handicapped'
while you're handicapped.

I will..

I will live as your girlfriend
while I'm your girl,

and I will live as your guardian
while I'm your guardian.

we can just live like that!

that's my word, you know.

when did you say that?

just right now!

I was about to say so..

- really?
- yeah.

what happened to you?

when I stopped by my home..

I saw your things.

that made me to wish..

I can live with your things
as long as I live..

so..

I emptied one drawer
and put your things in it.

good job, isn't it?

after all,
you hear my words.

why did you make me
eat my heart out?

maybe I played too much trick!

right..

don't do what you're not used to do,
or you'll get in trouble.

have your coffee now.

you must feel pain in your throat,
'cause you yelled at me..

and you must feel thirsty,
'cause you cried..

wanna drink this, too?

yes.

oh..I was almost dying..

from the headache you gave to me..

can't you see we're already busy enough
dealing with your death?

but you were talking about
living 'sexy'..and all that..

oh..don't make me feel ashamed..

the most important thing to you is..
dying..

it's important not only to me,

but also to..

all the people
in this world!

yes,

it's important to everybody..

so..

it's not a very special problem!

it's just a..

common problem.

from now..
I'll think only about..
how I'm gonna live with you.

and what I'm gonna do with you.

you're in, right?

now you..

came back to yourself.

right, that's the way life goes..

I'll just live at random!

let's just live at random,

okay?

alright.

by the way,
why did you write down the plan
on this music score note?

you could've found another notebook!

does it have any meaning?

that's the only blank notebook I had..

my goodness..

this woman's really living at random!

well..

give me your finger.

that's..

I gave that to you
as a wedding ring.

no.
I have that one on my finger.

this one is my present for you.

I'm sorry I gave you..

a ring doesn't fit your finger.

but these are of the same size..

and the same shape.

and I like that!

from now..

I'll be your right hand.

okay?

and later..

I'll be your right leg.

okay.

be my eyes, too.

sure.

be my brain, too.

sure.

and if you got sick of me,
just get out of my sight!

sure.

if you promise not to
put up with me..

I'll get married to you.

and live happily with you!

good!

if I can't put up with you..
I'll divorce you, okay?

I prepared a report of divorce
on this notebook.

really?

you're more deliberate than you look!

RULER OF YOUR OWN WORLD

Boksu : Yang Dong-geun
Kyung : Lee Na-young
Mirae : Gong Hyo-jin
Mr.Han : Lee Dong-gun
copyright 2002 MBC production, Korea
english subtitles by TOTUTA
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